It's a mix of the things I expected and unexpected. Things seem lonely and a little disoriented when I walk around even in a large group. I see new faces everyday, meeting someone new is something seemingly so easy yet impossible for a person like me. I walk from class to class in a daze taking notes like as if i was on auto pilot then driving home forgetting the ride there and back. I feel and think college is getting to me. I walk into a group of old friends and we reminisce about high school and life before college happened. The strangeness to be here in college as a freshman..... I cant help but miss high school as the best time of my life as crappy as it was I seriously miss it. I meet these new faces but i don't expect to get to know them because college life seems always on the move and so are their lives with work, studying, and future plans. It almost feels as if i'm alone in college even with my amount of friends in the 60+ area with more waiting I was never close to any of them. Everything is more complicated to an extent and i hope these thoughts changes soon.
Things are seeming hopeful though meeting new people formerly. They are all different and interesting... I hope my inability to speak or rather think of a conversation is overcome otherwise this shortened spark of hope is disintegrated by my own faults.
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